But This Feeling Inside...

I know I must Confess.

"I wish we were back in the Talking Phase
When we were so in Love and we could talk for days
Cause now this Relationship is not the Same
Don't get me wrong I'm a Lucky Guy
But I just cant hide what I feel inside
In the Talking Phase we Didn't even have to Try"

I Guess I can Write two Blogs in the same day, Right? I Don't know. I Feel Like My Thoughts, My Emotions, My True feelings, they reveal themselves at this time, when it's Late at night. Honey, if you're reading this, I'm sorry for what's written later on.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm a lucky guy, But I just can't hide what I feel inside."

I Don't know. I think I've been feeling despondent lately(hehe, you've got me saying it too.). Life's going the way I want it. Everything's just perfect. It seems a little too perfect though.

"I've been Having these weird thoughts lately...
Like, Is any of this for real...or not?"

I Love Kingdom Hearts. Random. Back to the subject at hand. I've been thinking about the future. What if I wont be able to make this last? What if she falls for someone else? What if this....What if That...I've talked to Christine about this. I told her my thoughts, my feelings, the best we both could come up with was "Don't Think About It". I try time and time again to not think about it. These thoughts just haunt me. I Love Her so Much. I truly, Honestly can't see myself with anyone other than her. Sometimes I Feel like this might not last. It is, after all, my first relationship. First relationships usually never last. Just last night, she was telling me about how her parents were fighting. This makes me think what if we end up like that? I don't want that to happen. I wish I knew what to do. I tell Christine most of my thoughts, whatever is left over goes on here. Ugh, I just don't know anymore..Maybe it's because I want to be with her, but physically, I know I can't do that. I Know God blessed me with this relationship for a reason, and I know I have to trust him. Trust him with everything, let him guide me. Guide my relationship. I'm truly blessed to have her. I thank the Lord each and everyday for her. Lord, please give me the strength to carry on. After all, this is all part of your plan

."Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.....Love never Fails..And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is Love."
-1 Corinthians 13:4-8a;13

Until Next Time..

--Salvati0n